It's difficult for me. I don't really like having to say it, truth be told, and I wish I didn't have to, but I do.
After much deliberation and stress, I'm now officially CLOSED to commissions. I have too much to do, and not enough time and energy to do it, and it's simply not fair to make clients wait as long as they have. That, and I realized that over the past twelve months, out of 100+ pictures I've drawn and painted, only THREE of them were personal works drawn for myself. All the rest were commissions, or otherwise done for other people. And it kind of depressed me - whatever happened to doing art for fun?
So, I'm closed to any new commissions for now. Forgive me for being in a bit of an art funk, but I think I need time to relax and do some of my own things for a little while, and learn how to draw for fun again. I'm sure I'll open again, though, once my waiting list is cleared up and I'm feeling artistically energized again. I'll probably go back to using a limited slot system, like I originally did - hopefully it'll keep a big commission backlog from happening again!
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In the meantime, though, I seem to have rediscovered my inspiration to write. My apologies to ~AnanziP1 - it's not the long-overdue attention that Luke and Jayli deserve - but at least it's something. It's so rare nowadays for me to find something that I find interesting enough that I want to write about it, but it makes sense, if I think about it.
What really draws me to art (ohgod the pun) is the process of making something unreal into something real, something tangible. Having been so busy with commissions, I've had so little to devote artistically to my own personal creative endeavours, and as a result, I've recently found myself writing again, bringing an unreal world to life.
I'm not a great writer. In fact, I'm usually too irritated at my mediocrity that I can't stand to write at all. But now, I'm enjoying it, and damn it all, I'm going to let myself keep enjoying it for as long as I'm able. It's so nice for a change that I just don't care that no one else is going to read it. I don't care that it could be better. I just enjoy it.
Aside from working on my personal writing project, I hope to produce some personal art, and maybe make a few new tutorials - even though tutorials aren't exactly ideal for personal expression and having fun, I enjoy helping people, and seeing them improve or benefit because of something I did. It's why I bothered to upload all the recent stock images - even if it's largely ignored, it's nice when the person who made a cool picture out of something I gave them comes back and leaves a comment, showing me what they did with it. That's awesome.
So yeah. Taking a commission art break to hopefully do more personal art, and find the fun again!
Requests - Never
Trades - Unlikely
Collaborations - Unlikely
Commissions - CLOSED
- Atrus: paperdolls (standing by)
- ~BaliskxAro teen mage - 0% (advance paid)
- ~Cookaboo: fight illustration - 0% (waiting for response)
- ~Kaelea: Rishka magic - 0% (waiting until '12)
- Annee:: sexy banner - 0% (not paid)
- Bettina:: book cover - 0% (waiting until '12)
- Kuntos:: goodbye illustration - 0% (not paid)
- Lexgoyle:: illustration - 0% (not paid)
- Rashi: Rashi party - 33% (advance paid)