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Christmas Wishlist etc. 2009

Journal Entry: Sun Nov 22, 2009, 6:17 PM






Christmas Wishlist etc 2009


No one can complain about not knowing what to get me!



... although it's not like I'm expecting more than one or two people to really get me anything, which is totally fine. Really, it's not so much a "I wish people would get this for me" list as it is a "this is stuff I wish to someday acquire," and God knows I love lists o' stuff. So here's my Christmas-List-o-Stuff 2009! (there's more, but I decided to leave the less fun/interesting stuff off) Also, most of the list is linked to the product itself, so people can see where I'm looking to buy my stuffs from :b



Also, I really want a baby ball python, but haven't the funds yet, really. Anyone have one who wants to share stories? :D



Leather Stuffs




Flutes




Fun Shirts




Art Stuff




Baby Ball Python Stuff




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  • ~Sarhea: Alec char sheet - 25% (paid in full)

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  • ~glassesandbooks: Enya sketch - 0% (not paid)

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Looking for Artist - please help

Journal Entry: Wed Oct 7, 2009, 4:03 PM






Looking for Artist - please help


~Theglavwen and I are looking for a serious professional artist to do a formal painting of his grandparents.



The artist MUST:


  • be a skilled realistic human portraitist.

  • be well-practiced in oil or acrylic mediums.

  • be capable of Old Masters-style portraits.



Examples of desired style: [link] [link] [link]


Old Masters Style



If you know of anyone who MIGHT qualify, PLEASE let me know.



Also, if it is not too much to ask, please spread the word - copy and paste this journal into your own if you are willing.



Thank you very much.



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  • Cuitcell: Portal between worlds - 40% (advance paid)

  • AJ: fire dance - 0% (advance not yet paid)

  • Charmeine: Night elf and Draenei - 0% (advance not yet paid)

  • Rashi: Rashi party - 5% (advance paid)


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Something definitely wrong

Journal Entry: Tue Oct 6, 2009, 2:22 PM






Something definitely wrong


I've been feeling so drained lately.



My boyfriend's grandma is in the hospital, and is not expected to live. We've been spending three to four hours a day there, and even though I've only known her for a few years, I can't help but find the whole thing entirely depressing, as she's a beautiful, vibrant, kind woman, loved by all, but a victim of extremely bad misfortune the past two months or so. This is what I was referring to in my earlier Something Wrong entry.



I cried for the first time yesterday, although just barely, and with some annoyance, and only because a visitor had come who was over-emotional and repeatedly sniffed, "We'll miss you," over and over, as if she were already gone. To me, it doesn't matter if it's true, or that the intent was kind - I personally wouldn't be able to help but feel a little guilty if I said things like that to a loved one who was dying. Like I was guilting them for not being able to be there for me in the future. Or like I had already dismissed them as dead and gone, it's just a matter of time.



I think the saddest thing about it is how quickly it all happened, and how almost overly accepting everyone is (except my boyfriend). I remember I was upstairs working when we first heard that she had cancer, and when we went to visit, she was vibrant and bright and insisting to continue with life as normal, no drama, on fuss, no point in making a deal out of something. This was probably two months ago or so. Then, shortly having been released from the hospital, to live her life normally and happily as she intended, she broke her hip in a freak accident - her patio chair broke suddenly underneath her. So she was returned to the hospital again. Still she was bright, although a bit grumbly about not being able to walk without an aid, but still with a sense of humour. Then she was released to a rehabilitation centre, more homely and comfortable than a hospital, where she was expected to be able to leave for home from in a few weeks or a month or two.



Then, a week ago, we received word that she had taken a sudden turn for the worse. When we went to visit the next day, she was... so very different. Still beautiful, but hardly able to remain awake or speak for long. Still with a sense of humour, though, which makes me smile.



Since then, we've been visiting her every day, or almost every day, until she falls asleep for the night. I've felt horrible for not being able to keep up working on my commissions and such, usually they don't take me longer than a week or two, or two weeks for bigger ones nowadays, but... I just can't work, or do much of anything. I have to do something that requires little work, and provides much distraction, or I dwell on what has happened lately. I haven't been sleeping well, and I'm almost certain that the sudden appearance of floaters in my right eye is likely stress related.



Everyone seems to have accepted it. When they know she can't hear them, they talk about where to keep her ashes, what kind of urn would be nicest, and I find it terribly disheartening. I'm a realist, and I do like to plan ahead, but it just strikes me as so inappropriate somehow, in this case... But maybe, likely, it's the only way they can cope.



Well, everyone except Casey. He hasn't and very likely won't accept it until it actually happens. Not that he refuses to understand the situation, or is in denial, but rather refuses to dig a grave for someone who is still alive and loved and needing his support.



Sigh.



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Commissions - OPEN (note me)

  • 8/8 slots are full

  • Terrafirma: Blood elf and Kurken - 33% (advance paid)

  • Cuitcell: Portal between worlds - 0% (advance not yet paid)

  • ~Greyback04: Two wolves in forest - 0% (advance not yet paid)

  • jthunder: lovers in forest - 0% (advance not yet paid)

  • lincard: vanguard attack - 0% (advance not yet paid)

  • Rashi: Rashi party! - 2% (advance paid)

  • AJ: world map - 5% (advance not yet paid)


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Cheap Specials!

ROUGH SKETCHES - $8 (samples)



VECTOR LINEART - $10-60 (samples)



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GRAPHITE ACEOS - $25-50 (samples)



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Something wrong

Journal Entry: Tue Sep 29, 2009, 8:11 PM






Something wrong


Sometimes I wonder if there's something wrong with me.



Of course, that question is pretty open to interpretation, and so the answer could go either way based on a variety of arguments. The answer isn't really what I'm interested in, to be honest.



Anyway, it strikes me as "normal" to have strong emotional responses to things like the death of relatives... but it's just not there. And it's not that I don't care - I do, or at least I think I do. And therein lies the question.



Before it had been clinically understood, a psychopath was considered a monster, lacking the special something that makes us human, the connections we make with others, the way we care. Now, I certainly know I'm not a psychopath (:b) but I'm always struck with a weird sense of "Shouldn't I care more? Why aren't I crying with tears of joy/sorrow?"



It's weird to be standing there, impassive and silent while my mother shrieks in tears, and my sister weeps over our old family dog that was found dead. (This was a number of years ago.)



I guess, just with all the stressful things that happened in my childhood, I learned it was better to be silent and calm than to shriek and wail. It does, after all, seep in eventually. When everyone has gone away, and used up the tissues, I'll cry, privately, by myself. Did I force myself to care? Or did the emotions finally penetrate the barrier I've built up all these years?



I just don't know what to do in the meantime but stand there quietly, and think soberly to myself, "It can be awful when something goes wrong."



Art Status

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Commissions - OPEN (note me)

  • 8/8 slots are full

  • Terrafirma: Blood elf and Kurken - 33% (advance paid)

  • Cuitcell: Portal between worlds - 0% (advance not yet paid)

  • ~Greyback04: Two wolves in forest - 0% (advance not yet paid)

  • jthunder: lovers in forest - 0% (advance not yet paid)

  • lincard: vanguard attack - 0% (advance not yet paid)

  • Rashi: Rashi party! - 2% (advance paid)

  • AJ: world map - 5% (advance not yet paid)


Char Portrait Commissions - OPEN




Cheap Specials!

ROUGH SKETCHES - $8 (samples)



VECTOR LINEART - $10-60 (samples)



PORTRAITS/BUSTS - $30-85 (samples)



GRAPHITE ACEOS - $25-50 (samples)



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The Value of Science - EDIT

Journal Entry: Sat Sep 26, 2009, 5:30 PM






The Value of Science


EDIT (part I): Some people have mistaken this entry to be pro-science anti-spirituality. It's not. Other people have mistaken this entry to be pro-spirituality anti-science. It's not. It's simply about the limitations of science. See the bottom of this entry for more on that...



* * * * * * *



While the results are too early to say this for sure, a dismally large percentage of people answering the poll so far have voted that "Given its powerful method, science is the only reliable, worthy system to believe in - it describes everything that's worthwhile or significant, and anything that can't be described by it (including spirituality) is silly superstition."



While I'll accept this as valid feelings on the matter (I understand and respect that people may not trust or value things that science can't describe), it is completely invalid as a factual statement.



Firstly, it's saying that ANYTHING that is NOT describable by science is silly. Morality, for instance, cannot be described by science - is justice silly, worthless, insignificant, superstitious, irrelevant? Certainly not. So obviously, things not described by science CAN be significant and worthy of address.



Secondly, it's saying that EVERYTHING in the realm of science is worthwhile or significant (as compared to those things outside the realm of science). Is studying the dietary habits of an earthworm more worthy, more significant than studying justice? Although the answer depends on the situation and context, I'm sure many would argue that being able to understand and apply the concept of justice is more important in more meaningful ways than being able to describe the dietary habits of worms. So in many ways, science is NOT necessarily more worthwhile or significant than non-scientific subjects.



Thirdly, it's saying that science is the ONLY reliable, worthy system. There are a number of problems with this assertion that make it incorrect. We've already established in our first point that important subjects exist outside of science, which necessitate the existence of other systems to apply to that which science cannot describe. This system is called philosophy (which is what science evolved historically from), which uses logic and reason in critical attempts to come to meaningful conclusions, and is in fact a broader subject than science, as it discusses science itself as well as all that science cannot discuss. Because they essentially use the same powerful system, the tools of philosophy are arguably on par with that of science, even though it does not have the same empirical data to support it.



If science were the only reliable, worthy system, it would be capable of applying to all things, and would not require another system such as philosophy to describe that which it cannot discuss. Furthermore, science was derived from philosophy, which came first and laid the groundwork for the powerful method that science uses, and so it can be argued that philosophy is an equally worthy system.



* * * * * * * * * * * *



It's a mistake to seriously vouch for a belief that uses words like "always," and "never," and "every." I did it on purpose, but hoped more people would notice and vote for the much more reasonable alternative "Science" option. That being said, it's definitely possible to argue a position for science and against spirituality, but certainly not in these extreme terms.



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EDIT (part II): I have received a particular counter-argument from a small number of people. They assert that science CAN and DOES apply to everything, including the things I've said it can't. For instance, a good example among many similar disciplines is evolutionary psychology/biology, which attempts to explain the origins and development of (including non-scientific) phenomenon, such as art, politics, and morality. Therefore, according to them, science can apply to everything, including subjective and immaterial things such as art and morality.



While this may seem convincing at first, it has at least two very serious problems - firstly, it assumes that studying something about a non-scientific subject is the same as studying the non-scientific subject itself. It is not. Studying how and why art may have developed in humans compared to other animals is NOT the same as studying art as a concept. Studying how and why people may have evolved a sense of morality is NOT the same as studying the concepts of morality itself.



Secondly, by its very definition, science IS FINITE and has strict limitations. I'm not talking about a lay-person's definition of science, which can be as broad as "our understanding of the world," but how it is defined IN SCIENCE, by scientists using it.



From Wikipedia: "To be termed scientific, a method of inquiry MUST be based on gathering observable, empirical and measurable evidence subject to specific principles of reasoning. A scientific method consists of the collection of data through observation and experimentation, and the formulation and testing of hypotheses." Furthermore, "a hypothesis, proposition, or theory is scientific ONLY if it is falsifiable."



From [link] : "Clearly, the scientific method is a powerful tool, but it does have its limitations. These limitations are based on the fact that a hypothesis must be testable and falsifiable and that experiments and observations be repeatable. This places certain topics beyond the reach of the scientific method." For example, "Science cannot prove or refute the existence of God or any other supernatural entity." Explained here: "Proponents of intelligent design try to pass this concept off as a scientific theory to make it more palatable to developers of public school curriculums. But intelligent design is not science because the existence of a divine being cannot be tested with an experiment." Furthermore, "Science is also incapable of making value judgments."



This demonstrates my next point. Science is a tool - it can be used to help us make moral judgements (for instance, forensic sciences in criminal cases) - upon finding and analysing the physical, objective data, humans can then try to attempt to decide if a person's actions were good or bad, fair or unfair, right or wrong. Science is not what is making the judgement call here! Science can tell us only who died, how he died/what he died from, when he died, and where he died. Science can tell us he died from a gunshot wound, fired at this angle from this origin point. Science can tell us that this person was responsible for firing that shot. However, science can NOT tell us the motive of this person for shooting the victim, or whether the killing was just or unjust - it can't tell the difference between two soldiers in a war, or a betrayal, or a random killing, or political assassination, or an assisted suicide, or an accident. It needs humans to make the judgement call for it, based on the information it provided.



Using science to help support an idea does not make the idea scientific unless the idea itself undergoes the scientific method. Some scientific discoveries can be used to support the idea that there may have been a Great Flood, for instance, but cannot show that it was an act of a supernatural omnipotent God. Scientific observations and conclusions can be used to liberate or condemn the accused in court, but that doesn't make the trial (or justice or morality) "scientific."



Similarly, it can be fairly said to exist the "art of science" or the "morality of science." This does not make art or morality scientific. (see my first point above) Just as scientifically studying the effects or development of morality is not the same as studying morality, studying the morality of science isn't the same as studying science itself. Someone pondering the rightness or wrongness of science and its products is very different from a scientist conducting research - they are NOT the same things!



As a sidenote, it has also been argued that science can make moral judgements on an issue in the sense that it provides information on the issue that differentiates it as natural or unnatural. This is true - science does allow us to differentiate between something that is natural or unnatural. Let us define "unnatural" as existing only when created by a living thing.



A common invalid argument for things such as homosexuality, pedophilia, and bestiality is that it's unnatural, therefore it's absolutely wrong. This is obviously incorrect for making such a conclusion (whether it is or isn't unnatural, or whether it is or isn't wrong is not the issue here). By the same logic, all unnatural things must be wrong, simply for being unnatural. Recall that anything unnatural is something that exists because something created it. Therefore, all technology, machines, and computers is unnatural (and therefore utterly morally wrong). Bird's nests are unnatural, and beaver dams, and clothing.



If you truly are asserting that science can make moral judgements because it can discern between natural and unnatural, and that furthermore unnatural things are morally wrong, what are you doing using a computer? Reading a book? Wearing clothes? Using a pencil, or fork?



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Commissions - OPEN (note me)

  • 8/8 slots are full

  • Terrafirma: Blood elf and Kurken - 33% (advance paid)

  • Cuitcell: Portal between worlds - 0% (advance not yet paid)

  • ~queenkalani: Wolf pack lineart - 5% (advance not yet paid)

  • ~Greyback04: Two wolves in forest - 0% (advance not yet paid)

  • jthunder: lovers in forest - 0% (advance not yet paid)

  • lincard: vanguard attack - 0% (advance not yet paid)

  • Rashi: Rashi party! - 2% (advance paid)

  • AJ: world map - 5% (advance not yet paid)


Char Portrait Commissions - OPEN




Cheap Specials!

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PORTRAITS/BUSTS - $30-85 (samples)

GRAPHITE ACEOS - $25-50 (samples)

VECTORIZE YOUR WORK! - $10-25 (samples)

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Of the following, which is the worst (has the worst effect on people/society) in your opinion? 

60%
589 deviants said Alcohol
21%
211 deviants said Pornography
19%
186 deviants said Marijuana

Shoutbox

~triskadecaphobia-13:icontriskadecaphobia-13:
HI! randomness is fun!
Sun Dec 27, 2009, 10:02 PM
=jocarra:iconjocarra:
Thank you.
Wed Oct 7, 2009, 3:51 PM
~koghon:iconkoghon:
I feel for you Jo. I've gone through something similar, except it was my mother's mother, my grandma who died when I was seven. I didn't understand, I was just a little girl. Now I'm older and I've seen death so many times. Don't worry, you'll be fine.
Wed Oct 7, 2009, 8:39 AM
=jocarra:iconjocarra:
Hm. Well, at least I don't have popcorn in my eye.
Tue Oct 6, 2009, 2:59 PM
~WolfPackofahundred:iconWolfPackofahundred:
Popcorn!
Tue Oct 6, 2009, 2:33 PM
=jocarra:iconjocarra:
FLOATY IN MY EYE!! D8 GET IT OUT
Fri Oct 2, 2009, 10:43 PM
~nutamu:iconnutamu:
Oh someone left a trampoline on your page, lucky you...hmm lucky me. *boing boing boing* Whee!
Thu Sep 17, 2009, 10:03 PM
~NIKON-AJ:iconNIKON-AJ:
Cookie Cookie
Tue Sep 1, 2009, 6:53 AM
=jocarra:iconjocarra:
Haha, actually, Casey promptly got (briefly) lost after leaving your house in the same direction he told you and Ruth about. Also, drama when we got home :V
Tue Aug 18, 2009, 12:20 PM
~fiannaValkyrie:iconfiannaValkyrie:
glad to see you guys made it home in one piece ~.^
Tue Aug 18, 2009, 12:27 AM
~NIKON-AJ:iconNIKON-AJ:
Cookie Cookie
Sat Aug 8, 2009, 11:31 AM
~NIKON-AJ:iconNIKON-AJ:
Hi Jen, Cookie Cookie
Sat Aug 1, 2009, 11:04 AM
~PaintedWolvesMovie:iconPaintedWolvesMovie:
I love your artwork! It is very detailed and realistic.
Sat Jul 25, 2009, 7:10 AM
~NIKON-AJ:iconNIKON-AJ:
I Love Cookies, Cookie Cookie
Tue Jul 21, 2009, 7:08 AM
=jocarra:iconjocarra:
:heart:
Mon Jul 13, 2009, 11:08 AM
~fiannaValkyrie:iconfiannaValkyrie:
So about that vacation contest? [link]
Mon Jul 13, 2009, 1:03 AM
~NIKON-AJ:iconNIKON-AJ:
Cookie Cookie
Sun Jun 28, 2009, 6:31 PM
=jocarra:iconjocarra:
We're wimps :c
Sat May 30, 2009, 8:51 PM
~AnanziP1:iconAnanziP1:
We're south-coasters, none of us can handle anything beyond 25C (or below 0C for that matter)
Sat May 30, 2009, 8:24 PM
=jocarra:iconjocarra:
Phew, it's getting bloody hot around here... Then again, I can't stand any temperature hotter than 25C, it seems :|
Fri May 29, 2009, 6:15 PM

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